HCINCC Part D’08 [9]

Went back to high school side yesterday to witness the ORD of part d'09 together with the rest of my brothers. It was the first time that we went back as seniors and it felt really nostalgic. Just a little more than a year ago it was our turn to pass-out of HCINCC and hand over the reins to the next batch of NCOs, and Im sure many of us felt empty, unsure of what to fill our time with on Wednesdays and Fridays. One year on, looking at now all of us have went our own ways, with different CCAs, subject combis, commitments, or even girlfriends(for some haha), but we know that we still have something in common within us.

Yesterday, sitting at SALT centre terraces with the rest of part d'08, I felt really at home with all the familiar faces around me, be it talking crap or making lame jokes and bullying juniors or just relieving the old memories we had. After ORD some of us went to KAP where we caught up with one another (and got ourselves updated with the latest scandals/gossips). It was one of the times when I got to speak freely and just be myself, which had became rare especially since JC life started. It was comforting to know that our bondedness(i know there's no such word) has not eroded over time =)

Started feeling unwell halfway through the video montages, went home and took some panadols before I slept. Woke up to a 38.8 fever today, with a bad sore throat. Uncle drove me around the area to find a clinic that opens on sat. Consultation and meds came up to $66, burnt a hole in my mum's pocket. Came back home, mum made some light porridge, ate and went to sleep. Feeling slightly better now, fever dropped to 37.7. Woke up intending to do some work but ended up blogging here. Hope its not h1n1 =X I want to be back at sch on mon =(

We did it, together.*
9:51 PM

Wanted to rant again, but decided against after watching this video. Now this is one guy who can find the strength to get back up after falling down. Will I be able to do so?

"The challenges in our life are there to strengthen our convictions, not to run us down. "

"Be thankful for what you have, not bitter for what you don't have"

Quite applicable to my current situation, considering the less-then-satisfactory state of my life right now. Time to do something.

We did it, together.*
8:37 PM

Just received a call from yitkhai telling me he got fever and won't be fetching me to sch tmr =( Duno why suddenly so many ppl fall sick, my class had 6 ppl + 2 teachers who took MC and didn come to school this week alone...scary. Sekarli H1N1 then gg for us =X

Need to keep this post short, super busy this week. Have to complete the homework for next week since my weekends are fully occupied with SL and jts.

We did it, together.*
8:27 PM

I'm overwhelmed with a sense of helplessness that comes along when you knew you put in effort into studying for a test and still end up screwing it. Not enough effort? Study methods ineffective? I have no idea.

Somehow I always have this problem with humanities subjects, you either see the light or you don't. Maybe I just don't have the flair. Its not like bio or chem or math when you memorise facts or practice equations and rely on logical thinking to get the correct answers. When I finish a math or chem paper i could roughly tell how well I will fare, usually no more then +- 10% from what I predicted, but i find it impossible to predict my grade for econs (or any other humans subjects for that matter) because you might think your way or answering is correct but sometimes the answer is just wrong and you fail like some crap.

Haven't got back essay results yet, but im not getting my hopes up. The disappointment is unbearable.

We did it, together.*
8:45 PM

Feeling quite disappointed with my blocks so far...fell short of my own expectations for chem and math by 1 grade each. I feel like telling myself its okay since i came back from tahan trip and had only 1 week to prepare, but deep down i know its just a lame excuse for not doing well. Sigh, time to pull up my socks man.

Hopefully the other subjects will be better, esp bio since i don't think i can do well for econs and gp.

We did it, together.*
8:44 PM

i worry about the future of these kids

Yay theres PE today =))

We did it, together.*
6:19 AM

Went to gym today~ haven't worked out in awhile, hmm maybe since apr when trainings became progressively more and more intensive. Haha shouldn't have ate spicy food directly before working out though, felt terrible after that.

Actually go to school can learn alot of stuff. As in other than academics also can learn important life skills like social skills, which is essential for survival in the society in future. If u don't learn how to communicate with people effectively when you are still schooling, you are guaranteed a tough time when you go out to work in the future. Even if currently you are lousy at making friends or finding it difficult for ppl to like and accept you, its still ok as long as you are receptive to your surroundings and willing to change for the better. Just don't live in your own fantasy world and be oblivious to your relationships with your peers, thinking that everyone in the world likes you and are interested in what you have to say or what you do.

There's absolutely no need to try to attract attention from people by doing stuff that you presume to be helpful or useful to other people, and if you are not a leader don't force yourself to be one. Just like zitao said, even though schools are trying to nurture us into leaders in various sectors, if leadership is not your strength then forget about it and try to develop your strengths in other areas. After all, its better to build upon your strengths than try to turn your weaknesses into strengths. I don't understand why some people have to act all spontaneous when doing stuff when others just obviously don't appreciate it. For all you know, ppl are actually abhorring and detesting you more when you do that. Why waste your effort when it can be channelled to something more constructive?

Just some random ramblings of a bored teenager..

We did it, together.*
8:47 PM

YAY! Our torment is finally over! woohoo~

Completing blocks is one thing, doing well for it is another. Today after bio we had to write our parents name and address on some envelope so that they can send the test results straight to our parents...damn scary la.

Well, no point worrying before results are released, take this time to have a well deserved break and maybe go out to have fun =))

We did it, together.*
9:30 PM