Just reached home from an exhausting exercise session...typing this post while waiting for my heart rate to return to normal.

Woke up damn early today to reach music room by 6.45. Slept on the way and woke up at the last moment when the bus reached school. National Day performance was decent I guess, played real soft at the beginning and also a few wrong notes, but since it was my first time performing I didn't expect myself to play perfectly anyway. I know I still have quite a long way to go, so must work hard and practice more, especially since we're going to perform at the Esplanade next year. Quite excited about it but im worried about whether I can commit to both CCAs next year. No point worrying about that now...shall re-prioritise when the time comes...

After national day celebrations I went to eat breakfast at KAP with some other part d's while waiting for class outing. Went to Ion Orchard. First time I've been there, most of the shops there are high-end boutiques, and yuanhao had only 2 dollars in his wallet, smart guy. Had lunch with classmates at Swensens (my 2nd meal in 2 hours), the bill came up to less then 90 bucks for 10 people. It was surprisingly cheap considering we ordered 8 main courses and an earthquake, as there was some 1-for-1 promotion. Walked around the mall and Plaza Sing for a while before i came home. Once again I slept on the MRT and woke up exactly at my stop. Today must be my lucky day hur.

Had this sudden urge to run when I reached home, so i changed into pe-attire and went for a 20-min run around my neighborhood. Did some pull-ups, push ups, sit-ups and stairs sprinting. It has been a long time since I worked myself so hard...especially when I've been missing quite a few tahan trainings for harmoc rehearsals. Gone were the days when I can eat as much as I want and not get fat...have to start watching my diet from now on.

Time to shower and nap. Gotta repay the sleep debt I've accumulated over the week.

We did it, together.*
4:28 PM

Went out today with teammates =D and to weilong's house after that.

In my opinion, though it may be difficult at times, its always better to have a good talk and trash things out once and for all when a problem exists, instead of trying to interpret the other person's actions yourself, and end up possibly misunderstanding the whole issue and never resolving the matter. Can't help but feel this nagging feeling inside me when I observe such incidents (whether in TV or real life). 所谓：“当局者迷，旁观者清”。

Also, its not really good to escape from a problem but better to face it head-on and conquer it. Haha but its one of those "easy to say but hard to do" things, I am guilty of it sometimes too.

I think I'm starting to blabber nonsense in my semi-conscious state of mind. Shall not waste anymore time here thinking of stuff to type, my chem notes are waiting for me~~

We did it, together.*
10:40 PM

Went back to high school side yesterday to witness the ORD of part d'09 together with the rest of my brothers. It was the first time that we went back as seniors and it felt really nostalgic. Just a little more than a year ago it was our turn to pass-out of HCINCC and hand over the reins to the next batch of NCOs, and Im sure many of us felt empty, unsure of what to fill our time with on Wednesdays and Fridays. One year on, looking at now all of us have went our own ways, with different CCAs, subject combis, commitments, or even girlfriends(for some haha), but we know that we still have something in common within us.

Yesterday, sitting at SALT centre terraces with the rest of part d'08, I felt really at home with all the familiar faces around me, be it talking crap or making lame jokes and bullying juniors or just relieving the old memories we had. After ORD some of us went to KAP where we caught up with one another (and got ourselves updated with the latest scandals/gossips). It was one of the times when I got to speak freely and just be myself, which had became rare especially since JC life started. It was comforting to know that our bondedness(i know there's no such word) has not eroded over time =)

Started feeling unwell halfway through the video montages, went home and took some panadols before I slept. Woke up to a 38.8 fever today, with a bad sore throat. Uncle drove me around the area to find a clinic that opens on sat. Consultation and meds came up to $66, burnt a hole in my mum's pocket. Came back home, mum made some light porridge, ate and went to sleep. Feeling slightly better now, fever dropped to 37.7. Woke up intending to do some work but ended up blogging here. Hope its not h1n1 =X I want to be back at sch on mon =(

We did it, together.*
9:51 PM

Wanted to rant again, but decided against after watching this video. Now this is one guy who can find the strength to get back up after falling down. Will I be able to do so?



"The challenges in our life are there to strengthen our convictions, not to run us down. "

"Be thankful for what you have, not bitter for what you don't have"

Quite applicable to my current situation, considering the less-then-satisfactory state of my life right now. Time to do something.

We did it, together.*
8:37 PM

Just received a call from yitkhai telling me he got fever and won't be fetching me to sch tmr =( Duno why suddenly so many ppl fall sick, my class had 6 ppl + 2 teachers who took MC and didn come to school this week alone...scary. Sekarli H1N1 then gg for us =X

Need to keep this post short, super busy this week. Have to complete the homework for next week since my weekends are fully occupied with SL and jts.

We did it, together.*
8:27 PM

I'm overwhelmed with a sense of helplessness that comes along when you knew you put in effort into studying for a test and still end up screwing it. Not enough effort? Study methods ineffective? I have no idea.

Somehow I always have this problem with humanities subjects, you either see the light or you don't. Maybe I just don't have the flair. Its not like bio or chem or math when you memorise facts or practice equations and rely on logical thinking to get the correct answers. When I finish a math or chem paper i could roughly tell how well I will fare, usually no more then +- 10% from what I predicted, but i find it impossible to predict my grade for econs (or any other humans subjects for that matter) because you might think your way or answering is correct but sometimes the answer is just wrong and you fail like some crap.

Haven't got back essay results yet, but im not getting my hopes up. The disappointment is unbearable.

We did it, together.*
8:45 PM

Feeling quite disappointed with my blocks so far...fell short of my own expectations for chem and math by 1 grade each. I feel like telling myself its okay since i came back from tahan trip and had only 1 week to prepare, but deep down i know its just a lame excuse for not doing well. Sigh, time to pull up my socks man.

Hopefully the other subjects will be better, esp bio since i don't think i can do well for econs and gp.

We did it, together.*
8:44 PM